Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Cozy Rain

 The best kind of rain, of course, is a cozy rain... the rain that falls on a day when you'd just as soon stay in bed a little longer, write letters or read a good book by the fire, take early tea with hot scones and jam and look out the streaked window with complacency.
- Susan Allen Toth, England For All Seasons

Today's weather based post was inspired by Heather and her fantastic blog: To Live Inspired

I wish today was just a cozy rain. Today is a rip-roaring full fury of mother nature storm. I want to absorb the energy of this storm and power through the last few weeks of this year. They will be challenging, they will be tiring.

I want to embrace the fury of the storm. I want to draw her power and make it my own and slam my way in to January. I want to muster all of my strengthy and show everyone what I'm made of.

I received a comment of how calm I seem these days. While buying a house, working very stressful 50 hour weeks, and creating the best Christmas Peyton could have ever imagined. I'm too busy to be stressed out. Stress doesn't help me accomplish everything. Stress does not build confidence in my abilites, create a productive attitude, or let Peyton celebrate the magic of this season.

In my weather power trip of using the storm to kick tailfeathers all the way to 2011; I do find myself wanting a day of Pajamas, Movies, and Soup. I want a lazy day to recoup - maybe next year.

Monday, December 13, 2010

A Down-Side Up kind of Day

Today went from up to down to back again.

Any change, any loss, does not make us victims.
Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you,
but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on.
No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something.
You always have a choice and the choice can be power.
Blaine Lee, "The Power Principle"

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

wanting a home

Noah: What do you want?
Allie: I want a white house with blue shutters and a room overlooking the river so I can paint.
Noah: Anything else?
Allie: Yes! I want a big ole porch wrapped around the whole house. We can drink tea and watch the sun go down.

If only it were that easy for all of us.

Shopping for a house is the weirdest experience I've ever had. It is the most specific list of I want, I need, I don’t care about that I have ever had to consider.

This isn't a prom dress, or a car. This is my daughters first real home, This is a major life investment, that I'm going to agree to pay for - for the next 30 years... 30.

I know I want a kitchen that had good storage and counter space. or that we can add counter space to. I'd love an Island, or room for an Island or a bar. I want closet space, and big windows, and natural light, and a fire place. I want room for Bookshelves and lots of books and art.


We need a decent foundation. Good roof. Fairly new windows. A fence that can contain the children.

I don’t care about fresh paint, new floors, or clean carpet. Or things like handles on the cupboards, or how messy the yard is. I don’t care if Peyton's playroom needs to be redone or the flowerboxes are dead. These are things I get to change for me, us, together. These are projects Teal and I get to work on.

I'm excited!!! So excited!!! and thinking soooo hard so much and so long. I'm exhausted but excited.